So yeah wow, it’s been a year.
A whole freaking year!
First and foremost this is gonna be a long-ass sappy post with a lot of backstory so if you don’t care about that stuff then just keep ooooooooon scrolling until you find a new post (:
First, let’s rewind back to January 2013 when I first decided to make this PeekingBoo identity. At the time I was going through an incredibly rocky break-up of an even more incredibly toxic relationship. We weren’t right for each other and the whole thing was handled incredibly poorly especially considering we had to continue living together after the breakup happened.
Anyway to take my mind off that mess I bought a drawing tablet, my drawing skills weren’t (and still aren’t, in my opinion), that great but there were so many things that I wanted to draw and so I figured why not.
I had spent a lot of time pondering the alias I wanted to operate under, one thing I noticed with a lot of popular names is that they were simple and often contradictory or a parody of sorts; most notable example that comes to mind is PurpleKecleon because it’s like are you poison-purple or psychic-purple? In its most basic form it’s a name that invokes questioning and intrigue and that’s the sort of name that I wanted.
One of my favourite Nintendo characters is Boo so I chose the name based on something Boo never does, and that’s peek. How is it supposed to know when you’re facing away from it? Surely it has to peek at some point, right? It was this logic combined with my current situation of having to face a new and unknown reality to come that made the name stick for me and made me push forward with it.
Fast-forward to mid-February and stuff happened that eventually pushed me to drive my ex out of our house and get her off the lease, mostly because she wasn’t paying for anything making the already-bad situation far worse. A week after she moved out I quit my job so that I could start everything on a clean slate.
Little did I know I was going to be unemployed for the next 6-months, as it turned out work in my field of customer service and data entry just about dried up, competition in job interviews were fierce and that’s even if you got an interview at all, I instantly regretted the purchase of my $500 drawing tablet and decided that if I’m gonna be out of work then I’d better put this thing to good use and at the very least try to raise money to cover what I had lost by buying it in the first place.
All the money I had saved slowly melted away as rent and bills continued to come out, I went from having $3000 saved to being close to $6000 in debt, I started a gofundme campaign to begin with, my friends and some of my followers very generously donated $1606, following that I launched a crowdfunding campaign as a means of preparing for the WaiCon convention (the one just past), despite these efforts my art was by no means capable of supporting me. After all, I don’t really consider myself to be that good of an artist but in that weakness lies the strength of knowing how to connect with a large group of people.
It takes hitting rock bottom both emotionally and financially to truly divide the strong from the weak, I’d like to think that the entire 6-month ordeal (despite my bitter feelings toward the people involved), have resulted in me becoming a better and happier person overall, I’m not by any means thanking them because that would be giving them too much credit but things wouldn’t have turned out for the better without their completely ridiculous and heart-shattering actions.
We now reach the present-day, or rather 6-months ago up until today… In August I was listening to Squares by Stepdad, I thoroughly recommend a playlist consisting solely of Stepdad, Plushgun, Tetrastar and Studio Killers to achieve a perfect balance of heightened melancholy blended into upbeat happy vibes, these 4 artists were my driving force through my depression and upon receiving the call saying I had been offered a job I absolutely cranked Squares on full blast and cried. It was the first time in my life that I have ever experienced crying of joy, before that I thought it was some sort of hollywood myth or whatever, I dunno.
Since starting this PeekingBoo endeavour I have met so many wonderful people, both in real life and online. To my current 1418 Subscribers on YouTube, 1369 Watchers on DeviantArt, 895 Followers on Tumblr and even the 128 Likes on my inactive Facebook Page. Each and every one of you have made this experience one to remember, both with your comments of support, ideas of what I should work on and even some of you commissioning me to draw or animate something, in addition to this I have been commissioned for a full-length animated music video that I am completely ecstatic about, if you said to me a year ago that I would have made it this far I honestly wouldn’t believe it, if you told me that I would receive a happy birthday from Danny Sexbang I’d say bullshit, or that one of my animations would be acknowledged by both Game Grumps and receive over 100,000 views I would probably die and become a real-life Boo. I don’t care if it’s animated terribly. It’s a milestone and that’s what I live for these days.
If you are still with me this far into the post I would like to first of all thank you, NOW KEEP READING!
I am pleased to announce that the next 2-weeks of income from work and other commissions will finally settle all outstanding debts I have. It has been a long and arduous 6-months but I wouldn’t change any of it for the world, it is through this belated anniversary/birthday post that I just want to express my extreme thanks for all of your support. 2014 is going to be an extremely exciting year and I hope you all continue to stay by my side during my journey.
If I could impart one piece of advice onto any of you it would be to always look at the positive parts of a bad situation, that is entirely subjective and dependent on your lifestyle, surroundings and influences but regardless of all of that, still try.
Happiness is all about personal satisfaction, it has nothing to do with how well-off you are, how busy you are or anything like that. You and only you are capable of making yourself happy. Have the confidence in yourself to tackle bad situations head-on with a positive outlook no matter how bleak things may be. Have the confidence in yourself to project your happiness onto others, do something selfless and brighten somebody’s day for no reason at all.
Happiness isn’t about recognition, you should feel good by making others feel good, my goal is to bring a smile to your face every time you see one of my drawings or animations no matter how stupid or serious they are, I bring smiles to the faces of my friends by making stupid text posts or coming up with ridiculous jokes. Live your adult life as though you are a child, the world is a wonderful place full of bitter people and there’s nothing you can do about that, but there’s no reason you have to become one of them.
It’s on that note I’d like to wrap this post up, there are a lot of events I neglected to mention in this post as I feel they take away from my reason for existing here in the first place but I hope that provides some insight into how things begun and where things are going.
I couldn’t care less if this post gets no notes but any acknowledgement that you’ve read it would be really swell, so maybe leave a reply or click the like button and I’ll keep a special place in my heart for you <3.